Between the cold and the walking through Kmart, my knee is wreaked. Ugh. It is much ugliness and very swollen. The dumb thing started hurting so bad that even my foot started to hurt. So, I took some Motrin and got to work trying to warm up my knee and massage the fluid out of the area. It's now midnight, and I am finally able to walk alright again, though I'll need to take some more Motrin in a minute, before I go to bed.
Sometimes, exercising and working hard causes me to forget how wimpy some parts of me are. I start to feel all strong and invincible, and then I end up hobbling around and breathing through my teeth. I don't like the feeling, and I don't mean the pain. Pain happens. I've been dealing with pain in my legs for as long as I can remember. Crooked legs does that to a girl. I can't stand that feeling of being weak and confined. I used to kind of enjoy being coddled when I was pregnant and truly unable to even get out of bed. A part of me is really chaffing at feeling unable now, and the other part of me is just surprised by my own feelings! Sure, I wouldn't turn down my husband if he wanted to cook me dinner, rub my feet, bathe me in luxurious bubbles... or anything else so extraordinarily wonderful. (Not that that would ever happen, let me just say. I just had one of those moments. lol) It just makes me gag to feel like I have to ask for simple things, like a glass of water.
Down, pesky pride! Down, I say!
I did eat today. I didn't get much of a chance to document my food choices today, but I did ingest some perfectly substantial food stuffs. DH took us out to breakfast, and I had the "1/2 special". Write me down for 1 egg, 1 slice of toast, 2 sausage links, and a couple bites of steamed hashbrowns with ketchup. I really love potatoes, but I just wasn't enthused about them today. That's a good thing, since I don't usually eat such a heavy breakfast, and it would have only made things unpleasant.
There was no food for me until we got home, many hours later. I ate another 1/3 of the pasta from last night. It wasn't much, but it was enough- if you know what I mean. Then I had some evening snacks. There was 5 oz. raw cucumber with FF sour cream dip, 1 oz. of peanuts, and about 45 grams of chocolate chex. That stuff is way too yummy. Because my calories were coming in too low, I later had some SF angel food cake with SF cherry topping. All in all, I'm logging 1,415 calories for the day. It seemed like a lot more when I was eating it, but I didn't have much time to eat once we got home. Breakfast was more like a brunch at 12:30 pm, and then we didn't get home until around 7pm or so.
My game plan for tomorrow is something like this:
- Eat around 1,400 calories
- Drink so much water that I pee like a pregnant woman
- Enjoy myself at church
- Exercise for a good, solid 40 mins. or so
- Eat a couple Motrin
- Make many of my calories come from cauliflower and yellow squash, before it goes bad!