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Saturday, October 31, 2009

Because You Asked

"Michael Lee" is my husband. I love the delicate beauty of the single rose, complete with the thorns. Life and love aren't without their own difficulties, but those just serve as a reminder of how beautiful it is to have someone to walk hand-in-hand with during the tough times. I chose a black and grey tattoo because I wanted a portrait of a rose, and not the classic rose tattoo. That was just too "cartoony" for me. I also wanted to have a tattoo that is large enough to look crisp and clear, and not look like a blob over time.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Road Food. Bleck.

I was doing pretty well today, at least for a weird day. It all started with a bowl of Frankenberry cereal this morning. I don't normally eat cereal in the morning, but it's hard to not eat a little foo-foo Halloween cereal once a year. lol

I had a late lunch, because I was busy with grocery shopping and dealing with school stuff. So, once I was able to stop running, I hurriedly grabbed a Healthy Choice meal while I had a chance. It was ok. I wasn't in the mood for it, but I was crunched for time and had a lot to do. I did try something new right before I left with my husband for a 5 hour trip. I tried some Chobani Greek yogurt, and realized that it probably isn't going to be for me. I threw in a few raisins and a wee bit of almond slices. Still, I had to mix in a little water to thin it out, because I just couldn't get the stuff down. It was just too thick.

While on the road, my husband and I snacked on a few Cheetos. We shared, and didn't have too many. It was just hard trying to get through the evening, hungry and under the stress of driving through heavy traffic in crappy weather. Before starting home, we pulled in at McDonald's to use the bathroom and grab something to eat. I chose a Crispy Chicken Ranch BLT, that ended up just being a chicken sandwich with lettuce and tomato. I did splurge though, and we got a chocolate milkshake. I ate all of the sandwich, though I shouldn't have. I knew about halfway through that I was done. I don't know why I kept eating it. I only ate a few fries and gave the rest to my husband. I had probably about 1/3 of the milkshake. Mike had another 1/3, and the rest is melting into foamy ick in the cup holder in the car. *laughs*

Yeah, my evening food pretty much sucked. I wish that I could say that I felt bad about it, but I think that I'm too tired to manage it. :o ) I have been so wiped out lately. I don't know what is going on with me. I am so tired lately. I wake up tired. Sometimes I even take a nap, because I can't keep my eyes open. Then, I'm ready to drop around 8:30 pm or so. It's ridiculous. My husband gets up incredibly early on Fridays, so that means that I'm awake too. So, I've been up all day and busy, and then spent 5 hours sitting in the car and diligently playing navigator while being afraid we were going to slide off the wet road. Oy. I'm just too tired to give a hoot about anything other than finding my pillow. *yawns*

I'm glad that tomorrow is going to be an easier day. I don't have a lot going on, and I can putter away the morning, chopping veggies and relaxing. I'm going to try eating eggplant again. I didn't like it last time, because it was so chewy. I think that cutting it up into smaller pieces will help, or at least that is what I'm hoping. I found some awesome beef & chicken bullion powders that have incredibly low sodium, so I can make some small servings of gravy to put over my meats if I want. Then again, I could just have some soup that doesn't make me blow up like a puffer fish. I'll try to show you some of my goodies that I picked up when I get online tomorrow. In the meantime, I'm going to go find that elusive pillow. Here is my parting thought....


Thursday, October 29, 2009

Happy Anniversary to Us!

Last night, my husband and I celebrated our 9th wedding anniversary. Of course, we started in typical form, with him calling me as I was headed home from school, telling me that he was going to be a couple hours late from work. I was a mite annoyed, particularly because I had eaten so sparingly throughout the day, knowing that we were going out for dinner. Then, I come to find him sitting in his favorite chair, grinning at me. He just loves to pull my leg and aggravate me. Apparently, that is how he shows me that he loves me. *laughs*

I love what exercising and being in better shape gets me. I was able to spend the entire evening in a ridiculously high pair of high-heeled boots. They were just so gorgeous and sexy, and it felt great to strut around in a little skirt and tall, sexy boots. (I did shop for a more classy dress, but then it struck me that my husband just isn't that kind of guy. *LMBO*) Anyway, it was wonderful to make it through the whole night without having to slip my shoes off, because heels usually destroy my knees and feet.

For dinner, we went to the Olive Garden. We very rarely ever eat out anywhere, and the commercials for their pasta have just been taunting me for months. So, that is where my husband took me! We skipped the appetizers and just had drinks and a salad. I did splurge though, and ordered a strawberry daiquiri. I'm not really a drinker, but that was so nice. When our dinners arrived, I found that my drink was very cool and cleansing. Unfortunately, that may have contributed to my having eaten so much of it!! Heehee...

My meal was the mezzaluna ravioli with sausage that I kept drooling over on the tv. I thought about getting the shrimp, but I'm just not a seafood gal. (I'm just turned off to it, since I have a mild allergy to some shellfish.) I left about 95% of the sausage on the plate, but I sure did eat those little cheese-filled raviolis. Oh yum. Seriously. I felt like sighing every time one of those pretty little ravioli gave up their cheese filling. The tomato alfredo sauce was absolutely wonderful. Can you tell that I eat a lot of plain chicken?? *chuckles*

Oh goodness, I'm sure that I took a huge calorie hit last night. I can't bring myself to caring about it though. Sure, I'll pay on the scale, but everything has a price. I'm willing to work a little harder now, to balance out the splurge.

After dinner, we went to the theater and watched "Couples Retreat". Being the rather 'off color' people that we are, we thought it was pretty funny. It was nice to watch a movie that was about married people, and even better that it was about married people rediscovering what it is that they love about each other. I think that my husband nearly turned purple, he was laughing so hard, when the "be the ass" scene came up at the end of the movie. Don't we all want to be hardworking, stubborn, immovable creatures when it comes to our grasp on our love? *laughs* Gotta love a man who says, "I'll be the best ass for you". *LMBO*

It's hard to believe that it's been 9 years already! Then again, time is a funny thing. It seems like just yesterday that he was sitting with me at the library, distracting me from my algebra with his long hair, chocolate colored eyes, and big black boots. His hair is shorter these days, thanks to the expectations that come with being a professional. Still, he looks at me with those gorgeous brown eyes, and he makes my heart melt.

Here we go, workin' on pinning down our first decade....

Monday, October 26, 2009

Food!!

Food was alright today. I didn't get enough veggies in, but I have been doing a ton of laundry today. That generally means that I grab whatever is easiest to eat, and that has been things like oatmeal.

This morning, I actually burned my oatmeal. I had never done that before! So, I had my cup of coffee, and whatever oatmeal wasn't stuck to the bottom of the pan. Lunch was a yummy ham sandwich. I almost caved and ate potato chips, but I stopped myself at the last moment and decided that they would be counterproductive to what I wanted. Instead of eating more, I just did more laundry. Bwaaaa..... Laundry. (Have I mentioned that I'm tired?)

Dinner was a Smart Ones lasagna and two servings of "California blend" vegetables that I lightly seared on the stove top. I had chicken that I could have eaten instead, but everyone else was having spaghetti, so I wanted to have something with noodles and sauce.

For a snack this evening, I made some chocolate oats. Even though I added a tablespoon of margarine to my oatmeal, I still only made it up to 1,041 calories today. It's just not happening today. I'm done, and ready for bed. So, I'm low and too tired to bother with it.

I didn't exercise today, and that is a good thing. The household chores helped me to keep my sanity, because I would have been pacing and making grumpy eyebrows at myself for not exercising. I just feel driven to exercise every day, but I have GOT to let my abs rest. I definitely don't want to end up with another hernia, but I could wind up there if I don't watch what I'm doing. My abdominal wall has been through so much crud, it is so very fragile now. I've got so much scar tissue that sometimes I get a little freaked out about it. I can't even clean my belly button normally any more. Instead, I have to use peroxide and a q-tip to clean out the tiny little hole, because the scar tissue has pulled my belly button so tight. Poor little belly button. It makes me sad. Anyway, all of the scar tissue is a concern, because I don't want the other tissues of my abdomen to give way when the scar tissue doesn't move and stretch. Supposedly, hernias don't hurt all that much. That hasn't been my experience. I wonder why it doesn't hurt other people when their muscles tear...

Anyway, I won't be exercising tomorrow either. Well, not exactly. I think that what I'm going to do is drop my daughter off at school, and then go walk around the mall. That will keep me away from the kitchen, keep me moving, but also keep me from the temptation of the gym. I just can't be around the weights and machines without salivating over them. I can take my MP3 player to the mall though, and just walk around. I like to window shop, so it's all good.

Ha! D'oh.

I feel a little... sheepish. You see, I knew yesterday that I had a weigh-in this morning. Still, I ate yummy, salty foods. When am I going to learn? Ok, obviously not yesterday. *laughs*

I might be tempted to feel frustrated, if I thought that my numbers are a true reflection of the effort that I've put forth this week. I'm only a half pound down this morning, but my waistline is looking pretty gnarly. It's sweetness, really.

It's going to be hard staying still this week. I'm geeked to get into the gym and get some work done. My abs are feeling a little better today, and hopefully I'll just continue to improve over the next few days.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Light Week

This week, I'm going to have to take it easy. I'm feeling a bit of discomfort in my abdomen, and I don't want to hurt myself. So, I've got to back things off and take it easy. Since I want to start working on the Body for Life 12 week program, that will give me some time to get organized and work out my food choices, along with the exercises that I can safely do.

I went to the book store this morning, and I got a blank journal to log my workouts and foods. If it seems like it will be helpful, I will post my experiences and results here on my blog also.

One of my first orders of business will be "before" pics, so I can better see any differences. Numbers don't mean a lot to me, not since before my injury, when I lost only 11 lbs. but my body composition changed so dramatically. I hate to feel like I am starting all over again, but I'm sure that it will all work out well so long as I pay attention to what my body is telling me.

My only concern is that I'm not supposed to be measuring my food in the same way that I'm used to. That actually has me a little .... scared. That seems more than a little stupid, but I guess I worry that I'll end up accidentally eating too much, and end up with negative results. Then again, with the weight training, it's not as though it would be a true negative. At least I would still be getting stronger, even if it took me a little longer to burn off the extra fat as I try to acclimate.

All in all, I'm rather excited by the prospect.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Loggin da Munchies for Thursday

Thursday, Oct. 22th
--Breakfast--

1 packet oatmeal

--Mid-Morning Meal--
1 small ham sandwich on light bread
w/ mustard & lettuce
4.5 oz. boiled cabbage
4 oz. green pepper
5.5 oz. raw cucumber

--Afternoon Eats--
1 c. Coffee
1 med. banana

--Dinner--
4 oz. (raw weight) salmon
4 oz. mashed sweetpotato
6 oz. mixed vegetables

--"Dessert"--
1 c. Coffee
Pure Protein bar

--Snack--
1 med. Apple w/
2 T peanut butter &
peanut butter morsels

1,437 Calories

Loggin da Munchies for Wednesday

Wednesday, Oct. 21th
--Breakfast--

1 packet oatmeal
1 c. Coffee

1 Special K Protein bar (post-workout)

--Lunch--
1 egg on light toast
1 c. Coffee

--Dinner--
1 General Tso chicken bowl w/
3 oz. corn

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BOO!!
1 light cupcake w/ 1 T. light frosting
1/2 c. SF ice cream

--Snack--
1 Pure Protein bar

1,347 Calories

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Wholly Cow!! That wee little cupcake and 1/2 c. of SF ice cream just about made my head pop off. At least the servings were small. I would have had to throw some away if there had been any more.

It will feel good to start this new day now, and NOT have all of the running around to do. Yesterday (Wednesday), was a day full of grocery shopping. We've made a concerted effort to restock the pantry, and it's been rather exhausting. I'm surprised that I let it become so diminished, but I've just had my head stuck in the right here, right now.

Well, the gym is calling. I focused on lower body yesterday, so I'm going to hit the weights kind of hard today for my upper body. I still haven't decided whether it is the treadmill or elliptical for my cardio today. I'd like to get back in the pool, but I can't do that until my tattoo heals. At least it isn't so sore today, so I was able to put a t-shirt over it. That makes it possible for me to lay on the weight bench and such, without worrying about pressing my unhealed skin against something that has seen a million sweaty behinds.

Oh, and I just had to put Jesse on here. It's a Jesse kind of day. *laughs*

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Loggin da Munchies for Tuesday

Tuesday, Oct. 20th
--Breakfast--

1 packet of oatmeal
1 Special K protein bar

--Snack--
1 Special K Protein bar (tattoo shop!!)
1 slice Cinnamon bread

--Dinner--
Healthy Choice Grilled Chicken Meal
1 c. Coffee

--Snack--
1 "Pure Protein" bar
1 String Cheese


1,135 Calories

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Food & Tattoo

My food has been thrown off a bit today, because I took a trip to the tattoo parlor this afternoon.

I knew that I was going to need something to help me get through my first tattoo, so I brought a protein bar along with me. I didn't want to do anything embarrassing, like passing out or anything. *laughs*

Once I got home, I had enough time to get some help covering up my ink, so I could put my jacket on. Then I left to get my daughter from school, which means that I was running on empty and in need of something. I grabbed a slice of cinnamon coffee cake and ran out the door. It wasn't the most nutritious, but I didn't know what else to do. It was either a wee bit of sweetness, or an insane run through the drive-thru.

My sister went out to the store, and when she came home, she brought some frozen dinners with her- one for each of us. I chose the grilled BBQ chicken, and it was surprisingly yummy. All in all, I haven't had the most wonderful food choices today, but I've done the best that I was able, and I managed to avoid the strawberry milkshake that was calling my name.

Loggin da Munchies for Monday

Monday, Oct. 19th
--Breakfast--

1 packet of oatmeal
1 Special K protein bar

--Lunch--
3 1/2 oz. (raw weight) salmon
3 oz. yellow squash
3.5 oz. zucchini

--Snack--
1 Stick String Cheese
1 packet of oatmeal

--Dinner--
"Smart Ones" Lasagna
4 oz. yellow squash
4 oz. zucchini
1 c. Coffee

--Snacks--
7 oz. raw cucumber
1 c. coffee
1 med. apple w/ peanut butter & morsels

1,576 Calories

Monday, October 19, 2009

Weigh In

D'oh! Yeah, I would be the dingaling who would eat enough salt to petrify her organs, right before weighing in. *rolls eyes* So, I only have a one pound loss to log today, though it was a couple pounds nicer yesterday morning.

Now that it's Monday morning, my yummy salt-filled dinner is the past. It's time to get on with my bad self, and get busy in the gym.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Loggin da Munchies for Saturday

Here is what I ate yesterday...

Saturday, Oct. 17th
--Breakfast--

1 c. Coffee
1 Special K Protein Bar

--Lunch--
4oz. (raw weight) poached salmon
4 oz. yellow squash
4 oz. zucchini
1/2 bottle Diet Mountain Dew

--Dinner--
General Tso Chicken Bowl

--Snack--
1 med. apple w/ peanut butter
1 slice cold pepperoni pizza

1,365 Calories
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Normally, I have a harder time staying on track on the weekends, but I did an alright job yesterday. The only problem is that I was so preoccupied with what I was doing, I started having blood sugar issues.

It probably looks funny to have pizza be the last thing I eat at night, but I had been out too long without food. I had less than 1k in by the time that I got home from seeing Harry Potter with my husband. So, we sat up and watched a little tv after digging through the fridge to see what was there to eat.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Closing Up The Week

This week has been a pretty good week for me! I've worked hard, harder than last week. I've also done a real good job staying "on plan" with my calorie budget. I've still eaten things that I enjoy, but not too much. I've also been very careful to make sure that none of my desserts were foods that trigger crazy behavior.

What makes me feel so great about the job that I've done is that I received my monthly "gift" this morning, which means that I've made it through all of the PMS weirdo munchie crazies. Now, I feel miserable enough that I don't really care to indulge in anything. I'm going to have to watch my water intake though, because my urge is to drink a lot of hot, soothing coffee.

I ordered a used copy of "Body For Life" this week. I'm going to poke through it and see if there is anything in there that could help me out. I also need to find my book on weight training for women. I want to make a more solid workout schedule, at least for just a couple weeks at a time. I think that specifically targeting different muscle groups and such will help stave off any sense of boredom.

Loggin da Munchies for Friday

Friday, Oct. 16th
--Breakfast--

2 packets Strawberry oatmeal

1 c. Coffee
1 Special K Protein bar

--Lunch--
1 egg on toast

--Dinner--
3 oz. chicken w/ 1 slice American cheese
4 oz. yellow squash, 4 0z. zucchini

--Snack--
1 med. apple w/ 2 T peanut butter & 1 serving peanut butter chips

1 String Cheese stick

1,290 Calories
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My food was pretty boring yesterday, except for my apple snack. I told my husband that I was VERY low on my calories, but I didn't know what to eat. Nothing looked good or sounded good. I've had apples and peanut butter somewhat frequently, but DH thought that I should add some peanut butter chips that I had in the fridge. He was right on there. Boy, that was just the little bit of something that made my wee snack feel like a decadent dessert.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Loggin da Munchies for Thursday

Here is what I ate yesterday. I know, it's getting pretty boring, eh? lol

Thursday, Oct. 15th
--Breakfast--

1 packet Strawberry oatmeal
1 Special K Protein Bar

1 packet Hawaiian Punch SF drink mix

--Lunch--
1 c. Coffee
1 egg on toast
1 String Cheese

--Dinner--
"Smart Ones" Lasagna
4 oz. yellow squash, 4 oz. zucchini

--Snacks--
1 c. Jello w/ non-dairy whipped topping
1 c. Coffee
30 g. Fiber One

1,170 Calories

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Yet again, my calories were a little low. I don't know. Really, I just didn't feel all that hungry. I knew when it was time to eat dinner because I started feeling kind of "weird". I didn't feel like I was going to faint exactly, but my head didn't feel like it was on quite straight. I didn't mean to put my dinner off for as long as I did, but that is the hard thing about eating things that are completely different from my family. I always cook their meal first, and then get something for myself.

Even though my number is low, I didn't feel like I was missing anything. I even nibbled a snack while watching tv in bed (Fiber One). I'm sure that my food intake will be a little higher for the next three days, though I hope to keep it in check.

Last night, I pulled my abdomen a bit. I think that I know what extracurricular activity has caused my pain. I'll have to be more careful about how I move myself in the future. I hope that I've only given my guts a little tweak, and that I didn't actually HURT anything. Since I'm not feeling 100%, and I don't want to risk a bad injury, I'm out of the gym today. That will give me three days of rest to try and recover. Now I just need to find something to do with myself, so I'm not sitting at home and staring at the fridge all day.

Oh, and why is XJ9 on my blog post? Just because I like Jenny! lol

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Loggin da Munchies for Wednesday

Wednesday, Oct. 14th
--Breakfast--

1 packet Strawberry oatmeal
1 Special K Protein Bar

--Lunch--
1 c. Coffee
1 Egg on toast

--Dinner--
4 oz. yellow squash, 4 oz. zucchini, 1 General Tso Chicken Bowl

--Snacks--
Popcorn
1 c. SF Jello w/ non-dairy whipped topping
30 g. Peanut Butter Crunch

1,116 Calories
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This is what I have for yesterday. I know that it is a little low, but I was struggling to even get there. I was upset last night, and was smart enough to put down the snack that I was eating. Instead, I went to my room and let my eyeballs leak on my pillow for a little while, until I didn't feel quite so upset. Then, I came back to where everyone else was, and I snacked while watching tv.

I should have thrown the popcorn away. It sounded good when I first popped it, but it was less than wonderful after it had gotten cold. I have got to get out of the mindset that I need to eat things in order to not waste them. With two kids around, there is always someone who is excited to eat popcorn, whether it is cold or not.

My husband had said that he wanted more of the pumpkin pie, so I wrapped it up for him... which left me looking around for a different snack. I settled on the Jello, and it was great. I don't normally like Jello all that much, but it hit the spot when mixed with the whipped topping.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Loggin da Munchies for Tuesday

Tuesday, Oct. 13th
--Breakfast--

1 packet Apple & Cinnamon oatmeal
1 Special K Protein Bar

--Lunch--
1 c. Coffee
1 Egg on toast

--Dinner--
Salmon (4 oz. raw weight), 3.75 oz. zucchini, 4.25 oz. yellow squash, 15 g. light Ranch dressing

1 slice Pumpkin Pie w/ non-dairy whipped topping

--Snack--
1 String Cheese Stick
1 med. Apple, pan seared w/ cinnamon

1,226 Calories

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It's hard to believe that everything just added up to 1,226 calories yesterday. Sometimes food just doesn't seem all that important, because my stomach isn't growling like crazy to let me know that it's time to eat.

I have been pretty hungry lately, but I am noticing a pattern emerging. When I workout in a more low-key manner (like swimming in the pool), I become very hungry and need a larger lunch when I get home. On the other hand, when I push it hard at the gym, it takes me a while to come down and be ready for food. Then, I tend to eat less, and my stomach doesn't feel like a huge black hole, ready to devour the Universe.

Some of the things that are improving my habits the most are just the little things that I need to do during the day. For example, I don't snack so much during the afternoon, because I have to leave and pick up my daughter from school. Between gym time, grocery shopping, and school stuff- I don't have as much time to sit around and be bored. The decrease in boredom is doing wonderful things for me.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Of Step Aerobics & Hot Tubs

Ok, I did get myself on here yesterday to whine and complain about how much the step aerobics class kicked my donkey, but then didn't come back to recap the rest of my day! I think that it is because my mind was focused squarely on my arse. *laughs*

Being clear of mind and focused today, I can see that I need to keep doing these painful things, less I completely wuss out. After all, how am I going to see what I'm capable of if I never push beyond my comfort zone? The hard part is that I have a terrible time pushing myself. I need to have someone else take the reins so I can get out of my head and just get my arse moving. I am the vampiritic minion of exercise, listening to my instructor with the only reply on my tongue being, "Yes Master...". *chuckles* Sure, I can be tripping over my own feet and ready to face-plant into the carpet with exhaustion, but "can't" doesn't fit well in my vocabulary.

Before I get too into the whole exercise thing, let me scribble down my foods for Monday on this post here, before they get lost.

Monday, Oct. 12th
--Breakfast--

1 packet blueberry oatmeal
1 Muscle Milk protein bar

--Lunch--
Toasted ham sandwich
1 c. Coffee

--Dinner--
3 oz. Chicken Breast, 4 oz. Mashed Potato
4 oz. zucchini, 4 oz. yellow squash

--Snack--
1 piece Pumpkin Pie w/ non-dairy "whipped cream"
1 c. Coffee

1 med. Apple

1,439 Calories
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Ta da! Food. While I was making dinner, I was lucky that I didn't burn my own hair in the oven. Seriously, I was dragging tail badly. My sister kept looking at me with a concerned look, but I think that she was probably just worried that she'd have to pick my crispy tresses out of her chicken breast. *laughs*

This morning, I felt like a block of concrete. I was pretty sure that parts of me were going to crumble off as I tried to get out of bed. Stiff!! Ouch!! My shoulders and chest are sore from weight training, though not anywhere near as painful as my legs and butt.

Since I was in such discomfort, I went straight for the hot tub when I got to the gym. I sat there for a few minutes, trying to rub out some of the stiffness as the bubbles shook all of my floppy parts. Nothing makes me so aware of how jiggly my thighs are like the bubbles do. Ok, maybe when I'm swimming in the pool. Then I feel like a wee hippopotamus, pushing through the water. You know, they are adorable, but all squishy and roll-ey too. *laughs*

I did swim around and try to get loose in the pool. That worked with moderate success. At least I was pretty active for 30 minutes. Then I went upstairs and walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes. The swimming was more enjoyable.

It crossed my mind that maybe I should leave off the classes for a little bit, until I feel stronger. After all, I am just coming back after surgery. However... I have had a decent amount of time to heal, and I'm not doing anything that adds even the slightest twinge of discomfort to my abdomen. So, I think that I should just get over my current state of wuss, and get back on the lesson floor! I wanted to do new things and have new experiences, and how can I do that if I get caught up in sore muscles and worry over looking like an idiot?

Riiiight. I've got to keep doing, even though I am a little embarrassed, and more than a little out of shape.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Stepping Into Something New

I decided to join in on a step aerobics class this morning. I didn't know that the usual instructor was gone, but I found that out when the wonderful older lady behind me made mention of it- and said that the current instructor was much harder. Not having anything to compare her to, I'll just have to take my lovely neighbor's word on it.

I felt pretty stupid today. It's been 11 years and many more pounds since I last enjoyed step aerobics. I found out today that that really makes a difference. Step kicked my arse. It kicked it all over the place. Not only that, but my balance sucks... and I obviously can't follow simple instructions. *laughs* Of course, I remember now that the first few classes "back in the day" were pretty rough, but once I got to know my instructor's calls and general sequences, I just flew through it all with a sense of invigoration. I was closer to exhaustion this time around, not invigoration.

After Step, I hit the free weights for a little bit, working on my upper body. My knees were already tired mush, so I worked my arms a while before heading over for the bench press. I love the bench press. It is so much nicer than sitting at that press machine. I was so tired though, I only got two sets in before I completely turned into quivering gelatinous goo.

It's a good thing that my car knows where it lives. I kind of felt like I was on autopilot on the way home, but I started to feel a mite better after having a sandwich. I had eaten a bowl of oatmeal with my daughter, at 7:30 this morning. Then, I had a light "Muscle Milk" protein bar while sitting in the car at 9 o'clock. I hadn't had one of those before, and let me just say that it is a completely safe food for me. I will never binge eat on those. *gag* It's covered in chocolate, but my mouth couldn't tell. It also takes five minutes to chew one bite. I guess that is good for making one little bar seem like more, but... wow. I'll stick to my Special K protein bars to help me survive exercising.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Sunday Weigh-In #1

I came in at -3 lbs. this week. Yay for me! That's not bad for having a week filled mostly with low impact water aerobics.

My week was pretty clean, except for a little indulgence on Saturday evening. I could have probably had an even better number, but it was pretty nice to have the wee hamburger and cup of chili for dinner, even though I'm sure it was packed with sodium. Where I had a little trouble was with the roasted almonds that we got to snack on while we walked around the "dirt mall" as a family. I had too many of them, and that was a wee bit of a problem. My husband ran off with the rest of them though, and that is good for my waistline. *chuckles*

Friday, October 9, 2009

My "Last Chance" Workout

With it being Friday, the end of my workout week is now over! I have two blessed days of rest, which I am going to enjoy. My plan is to keep exercising throughout the work week, and then take the weekend off, with a weigh-in on Sunday. Hopefully, having the weigh-in on Sunday will help motivate me to not muck things up on Saturday. lol

This morning, I hit the exercise floor for some serious work. First, I rode the bike for 20 minutes to get the blood flowing. Weights were next, and I hit those pretty hard. I took a break about halfway through, and by break- I mean that I hopped on the treadmill to do running/walking intervals. After more weights, I walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes. Lastly, I hopped into the pool and swam around for a little while before hitting the shower.

Now I'm sleepy. lol

I was smart enough to bring one of my protein bars with me to the gym. When I started lagging a bit, I stepped out to the lobby and ate my protein bar, and that really helped me feel a lot better. It even bought me some time to run by the store before I got in here at home and was able to make my lunch.

Recap for Thursday

I was in the pool again for Thursday, splashing around with my adorable old birds. I sure do enjoy swimming. It is a lot of fun, and I feel refreshed when I'm done, not gross and sticky.

Here are my foods for the day, for a total of 1,324 calories.

Thurs, Oct. 8th
--Breakfast--

Fruit Oatmeal
1 Cheese Stick
214 Calories

--After Workout Snack--
Special K Protein bar
170 Calories

--Lunch--
Ham & Cheese Sub
1 c. Coffee
343 Calories

--Dinner--
Pan-seared Chicken & Cauliflower
Creamy Acorn Squash
265 Calories

--Evening Snacks--
1 plain doughnut
1 Packet Fruit & Cream oatmeal
333 Calories

My husband told me that there wasn't any begging allowed in the kitchen, when he walked in with a box of doughnuts. I've been a good girl with the sweets, but I sure did want a doughnut. Thankfully, hiding in the corner of the box was a cute little plain doughnut, and it was mine! lol I had the calories for it, so I nibbled that thing slowly, savoring every little bite.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Weird Post: Silliness About "The Biggest Loser"

I can't help it. It's the little things that you do, Tracey. It's that way that you talk with your eyes opened so wide that I imagine they must be drying out. It's in the way that you move your head when you talk. There are so many little things about you, aside from your personality, that kind of creeps me out.

I know that that isn't kind to say, and I'm sorry that my first though is that I'm waiting for your head to pop off, or for you to act like a zombie and begin gnawing on someone's skull. You seem so... manic.

You scare me, Tracey.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Dog Tired

I am just beat. The odd thing is that I didn't really do all that much, at least not enough to warrant being this tired. I was at the gym again this morning, and I rode the bike for 20 minutes and walked on the treadmill for a few minutes.... waiting for help from my husband. You see, I accidentally locked my keys and gym stuff in my car. *shakes head* It was embarrassing.

After my dear husband was so kind as to drive over and let me into my car, I grabbed my suit and hopped into the pool. I exercised in the water for 45 minutes before I completely pooped out. By the time that I got home, I felt as though I could just stop moving and stand in one spot and sleep like a horse. *laughs* The first thing I did when I came home was to eat, and that has helped a little bit. I've been making eyes at my pillow all day, wishing that I had an opportunity to take a nap.

Here are my food choices for the day. I've planned out my snack early, since that helps me get through the evening without turning into a crazy grazing beast. lol

Wed, Oct. 7th
--Breakfast--

Oatmeal
225 Calories

--Lunch--
Ham & Cheese sandwich
1/2 med. apple
1 c. Coffee
344 Calories

--Dinner--
Taco Salad
408 Calories

--Evening Snacks--
1 med. apple
2 T. peanut butter

1 c. Coffee
1 packet Peach Oatmeal
446 Calories

Alrighty, I'm taking my droopy self off to the bath. When my sister gets home, we're going to finish watching "The Biggest Loser". Go Orange Team! *grins*

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Made it!

Yay! Today has been a good day, even though I've felt exhausted and hungry. I packed my gym bag last night, so I was all set when I dropped Pumpkin off at school. I hurried over to the foo-foo gym and squeezed myself into my small(er) bathing suit and the obnoxiously orange flip flops that I stole from my husband. *laughs*

Since I was sore this morning, I hopped in the hot tub first off. That was quite blissful. When I started to feel overheated, I got out and relaxed on a lounge until I was cool enough to get into the pool. I was early for the water aerobics class, which turned out to be a very good thing. I got in the pool and started with a few laps, and it didn't feel very good. My abdomen was feeling pretty nasty, so I switched to jogging in the pool. Eventually I started to loosen up and I wasn't in as much discomfort.

I'm a little bit worried, and just hoping that I'm having weirdness, just because I'm weird- as is my body. There is that pesky little fact that my husband and I weren't careful enough recently, and I'm afraid that there is a chance that I might find myself multiplying. *sigh* I don't put a ton of stock in cycle calculators and all of that, but the timing of our mistake was just very bad. So, I'm hoping that my abdominal discomfort is just a consequence surgery. I feel terrible for praying that I am not pregnant, especially because we would love to have a baby. Given my history though, I just couldn't feel good about it. It's a real shame that my insurance won't pay for sterilization. I would prefer to just do that and not have to worry about these things.

Anyway, I spent about a half hour jogging in the pool. By the time water aerobics started, I was feeling quite a bit better. I was smiling on the inside, watching all of my "old birds" shuffling over and getting into the pool. There is no getting around the fact that the water aerobics class is filled 90%+ with elderly ladies. I just adore my "old birds" though. They are sassy and fun.

After the pool, I put my gym clothes on and went upstairs for some weight training. I like the quiet of using the free weights. They aren't used a whole lot at the foo-foo gym, so I was able to stay in my little corner and get in a some upper body work. I did choose to use a couple of machines though. I wanted to hit the lat press and to get some rows in. My triceps and lats are a little tender tonight. I'm not quite sore, but I feel them.

Tomorrow, I am going to hit the pool again. It just feels good to start there, and then work into more strenuous activity. I need to get some lower body work in too, so that will be my focus on the weight floor.

My meals were pretty good today. I started with my oatmeal, which is kind of boring, but works. I don't feel like really cooking in the morning, and I can't eat cereal. This what I've had today:
--Breakfast--
Oatmeal w/ fixins
(raisins, coconut, almonds)
278 Calories

--Lunch--
Ham Sandwich and 2 serv. Mixed Vegetables
Approx. 378 Calories

--Snack--
Special K Protein bar
Small Chocolate Muffin
253 Calories

--Dinner--
47 g. Chicken Breast
General Tso Rice Bowl
412 Calories

--Snack--
Light Popcorn
1 c. Coffee
101 Calories

That is 1,421 calories for those like me, who can't be bothered to add it all up. *laugh* (I have Fitday to do that for me.) I have some wiggle room there, since that is a little low for where I am shooting for. I might have a little snack of something before I try and go to sleep, since I've been terribly hungry today. Being in that water really wiped me out for some reason, and I've been longing after a nap all day today. Instead of sleeping, I've been putzing around the house, and fighting some gnawing hunger. I might question whether I'm truly hungry, except that my stomach keeps growling like a beast.

Monday, October 5, 2009

First Day In

My first day in over at the foo-foo gym was really nice! I had one of the gals from the gym ushering me around, getting me set up with some exercises. While I liked having someone else do the organizing, I always feel awkward when someone wants to talk to me while expecting me to still be able to count reps. *laugh* I have to be focused on what I'm doing, so I don't look like I have adult A.D.D. . Heehee...

After wrapping up with another 20 minutes of cardio, I went downstairs and took a shower. I had wanted to get into the pool, but I wasn't aware of the new rule about wearing a cap in the pool. So, I obviously didn't have one with me. I stopped by the store on the way to go pick up my daughter from school though, and I was able to get one in time for the gym tomorrow morning.

I want to really wring as much out of this month-to-month membership as absolutely possible. So, I think that I'm going to take a fitness class tomorrow. I have to look at the schedule and see what I'd be interested in, but I'm sure that I'll find something. I'm feeling pretty good this evening. I'm not sore, though my arthritic knee feels slightly tired. I'll probably pass on the kickboxing for right now, but all of the other classes sound fun.

Eating is going really well also! I am a little worried about the evening though, just because my sister has been going on about how much she wants to bake cookies. I told her that that wouldn't be a kindness toward me, but I'm not sure that it matters to her so much. I asked that she buy ready-made cookies and just eat them in private, and we'll see how that works out.

In the meantime, my meals have been tasty. I was surprised that I got on for so long off of that one bowl of oatmeal. Tomorrow, I am bringing a snack with me for right after my workout. This afternoon, I hit Subway for a sandwich, and practically inhaled the thing. I'll be better prepared tomorrow.

I ate a frozen meal for dinner tonight, after making a separate meal for all of my family. It was just easier for me, instead of weighing everything and measuring. I'll try to do a little better tomorrow, and I'll share dinner with my loved ones.

Well, I have a bag of beautiful Michigan apples that are just begging for my attention. They are so pretty that I just have to have one. *grins* I've got 377 more calories to eat up today, before I head to bed. Time to get to it!

Let's See

... just how tired I can make me. *laughs*

After dropping Pumpkin off at school in the morning, I'm off to the foo-foo gym to see about getting a temporary membership over there. They have a pool, hot tub, and various fitness classes- all of which aren't offered at the "manly gym". Since I'm going to be a very sore girl, for a very long time, I thought that the foo-foo gym sounded great. The only down side is that they alternate days between men and women. That's really alright though, because I can hit the manly gym when it's not the "girl day" at the foo-foo gym that is closest to me.

Boy, it's a good thing that everyone is running these cheap month-by-month memberships! lol

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Wow, It's October!

I can't believe that it is October already!

Well, I made it through a week of daily gym visits before sickness hit our household, and I got knocked on my rear. So, I took this last week off from exercise, since I had heard somewhere that strenuous exercise jacks up the immune system a bit. For as much as I was enjoying my daily gym visits, I really do like to breathe. *laughs*

I'm feeling about 95% better now, so I'm ready to get my tail back into the game. Things are going pretty well for me, even considering that I'm not functioning at peak performance while babying my abdomen. I wish that I knew how long I have to be careful, just to be sure that I don't tear that muscle all apart again.

I was thinking today that I might pick up a month-by-month membership at the foo-foo girly gym for a little while. I really enjoy working out at the serious "manly" gym, but there *are* some things that I miss. To get through this winter, and a little lack of motivation, I think that I would like to get in some classes and water aerobics. I have the time, and the variety of activities might help me stay out of the fridge more often.

I've been struggling for quite a while now, and my diet is the big weight on my back that is making everything more difficult. I have GOT to stop eating junk. I don't even know when it is that I last was 100% "on plan" and careful about logging all of my foods. I don't know if it is laziness, stupidness, or both. I've paid for it though, by going up one pant size. That's a big bummer. It not something that I have to live with though. I can get a handle on this and turn the boat around before I get myself into big trouble all over again.

One thing that has helped to motivate me has been the show "Diet Tribe" that just started it's second season. I enjoy watching "The Biggest Loser", but there are times when I like to see people work hard just for the right reasons, without climbing up each other's backs for money. I like that no one gets voted off on DT, and that Jesse is certainly not hard on the eyes. *laughs* Seriously though, for as much as I like being pushed hard (and seeing others being pushed), I like that Jesse is always nice about it and doesn't get in their faces and cuss the gals out. For as much as I love Bob and Jillian, I'd never last a day in their gym. If someone swears at me, I shut down and am more likely to get quiet before poppin' someone in the mouth. That doesn't mean that I don't enjoy some serious challenge. There's just no excuse for being an ass.

My challenges for this week are:

- Drop 2-3 lbs.
- Drink lots of water
- Restrict coffee to two cups per day
- Follow strict meal planning for 1,500 calories per day

I plan on accomplishing my weight loss through a combination of drinking water and exercising 5 days this week, for at least 90 minutes each day. Since I've been eating junk and not drinking my water, I know that getting that water in will help me have that initial whoosh of water weight drop off. I don't know exactly what I can accomplish with the exercise, since my body is rather unpredictable these days, but I know that it will be all good. I'm not going to push myself beyond what I feel is safe. I can challenge myself on the treadmill, bike, and swimming. All weight training will be done carefully though.

Tomorrow will be my planning day, as my "working week" will begin on Monday. I'll exercise Monday through Friday, and weigh in on Saturdays. There won't be any exercising on the weekends, but I'll still stick to my 1,500 calorie goal, and hopefully I'll have good results. I'm going to take it week by week, trying new exercises and food options each week. That should keep my body guessing enough that I don't get bored.